wipe your tears :)

udah ya hana, jangan nangis terus. jangan sedih terus. mata udah kayak mata kodok gara2 bengkak. bantal basah terus gara2 selalu nangis. if you love someone you can't have, move on. udah cukup dong galau time-nya. ikhlasin aja. sayang aja ga cukup kan. mungkin emang dia bukan untuk hana. doain yang terbaik aja buat dia. selalu husnudzon sama Allah, mungkin Allah masih menyimpan dan menjaga "seseorang yang terbaik" untuk hana. Dia akan mempertemukan hana di saat yang tepat. sekarang hapus air matamu dan senyum :)

delete you

DELETE FROM FACEBOOK: DONE

DELETE FROM TWITTER: DONE

DELETE FROM CELL PHONE: DONE

DELETE FROM MY HEART : ERROR

silly

DID YOU KNOW THAT ALL NUMBER FROM 1 TO 999 DOESN'T HAVE A LETTER "A" but my brain was fulled with A. and I wonder if i ever cross your mind. for me it happens all the time. i don't understand how i can care this much when you don't care at all. i'm 99% sure you don't love me (but it's that 1% that keeps me hanging on). i hope you see my blog and notice everything's about you.

I love you so much. I’ve never loved someone so much in my life and I never will, but the hardest part is knowing that you’re long gone, and you’ve moved on. I want to tell you, I want you to know, but I know you dont feel the same way… so what’s the point.
I guess when a heart breaks, it doesn’t break even… 

Why do people always say “If we’re meant to be, we’re meant to be”. Don’t they know that without effort, destiny won’t work.

i give up

udah ya hana, jangan sakiti hatimu terlalu dalam. stop. toh dia ga bakal peduli. toh dia masih sayang sama ex-nya. kenapa sih kamu terus-terusan mengharapkan yang ga pasti. udah cukup kan nangisnya. udah cukup kan sakitnya. udah cukup kan lelahnya. udah ya jangan dilanjutin. lupakan. lepaskan.

hobraaaa

hobraaa!
kemaren hana hunting foto buat persiapan pameran performa. hana hunting di sekitar lingkungan kampus aja sih. dan inilah hasil jepretan hana haha maaf ya kalo biasa aja, maklum pemula....
:D :D

dan ini foto bonusnya (foto-foto narsisnya) hehehe

gara-gara game online

Barra, adik laki-laki saya satu-satunya sangat mencintai game online. Tagihan telepon rumah saya pernah bengkak gara-gara game online. Oleh karena itu orang tua saya tidak pernah membolehkan ia bermain game online di rumah. Tapi rugi juga sih, Ummi kan pernah nyuruh Barra beli mi titi eh pas ditungguin lamaaaaaaaaaaa banget. Ga taunya dia ngetem dulu di warnet. Makanya Ummi udah apal, kalo nyuruh Barra sesuatu dan ternyata ia ga pulang-pulang berarti ia ke warnet. Ummi selalu bilang"Pasti Barra ke warnet nih. Ditungguin ga dateng-dateng makanannya".
Nah suatu hari saya bersama Rizqa mengantar Ummi saya ke kampus dimana ia mengajar. Ummi menyuruh saya dan Rizqa untuk menunggu di luar karena ia akan ke ruang dekan. Saya dan Rizqa menunggu agak lama. Saya menunggu hampir 1 jam bersama Rizqa. Saya pun berkata "Riz, Ummi kok lama banget ya?" dan adik saya yang baru berusia 5 tahun itu berkata "Iya nih, Ummi lama banget. Pasti Ummi ke warnet dulu maen game online". Dan saya pun hanya bisa tertawa.

another scene

suatu hari di kelas kewirausahaan....

Pak Dedi bertanya: "Ayo sebutkan apa cita-cita kalian"
Yudhit: Dosen
Vera: Guru
Zaki: Pengusaha
Rifqi: Artis
Ririn: Ketua PSSI Pak, ngegantiin Nurdin Halid
Satu kelas: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

sorry, i can't stop it

dear heart, why you always choose someone who doesn't love you back?
aren't you tired of being into pieces?
it really hurts when you love someone who doesn't love you back. then why i'm still care a lot about you? i don't know, maybe i love you. no no no, it's absolutely i do love you. dear God, will you ever let him know that someone missed him quite terribly. i'm too shy to tell him, i'm too afraid to let him knows. because i know, no matter how much i love him, he would never love me back. he would never love me as the way i do.
i'm the one who wants to be with you, deep inside i hope you feel it too. but it may only be my dream. i'm expecting too much, then i'm hurt. i'm fall so deep in love with you, now i fall so deep in the ravine to know that you never care about me even just a little. no one catch me. i wish i had another time to love you. but suddenly tears roll down when i'm realize it's impossible.
my heart cracks, you may think i'm a lunatic. go ahead, feel free to think about that. maybe i really am.
tell me how could i move on when i'm still in love with someone, unconditionally, even when i know he doesn't love me. you don't know that i try to forget you for million times. the harder i try to forget about you, my love for you grow stronger.
i still look at your twitter. i just want to know what are you feel or what are you doing. you don't know how long i've waited for you. hahahahahaha how pathetic i am.
God, please cure this illness. i don't know what should i do. i don't know what are you planning for me. i hope it's the best though it hurts me so much. life teaching me how to be patient.

these are my feelings, i hope you understand.
or maybe you just don't care

Dear God

For million times, I’m falling in love with the same boy. Yes, everyday I fall in love with the same boy. We’ve never met again in a long time, but he always stay in my heart. He probably doesn’t know about this. God, guide me to manage my feelings. I fall so deep in love with him but I still remember You. You have some rules of love that has been written in the Holy Qur’an. I try to obey them. Please take care of me in Your best way. You know that I don’t wanna have a relationship which doesn't have future purposes. I wanna have a serious one, because I’m not easy to fall in love. For me, love is not to play.

Love is a blessing from God to every human in the world. It can’t be defined by words, I just feel it now. I know it’s too early to talk about serious love. I just want You to guide me. Give me the sign if he is the right one please let him closer to me and if he’s not just blow him with the wind.

I’m twentieth now. Everyone wants to married someday. So do I. 

Dear God, if he loves me too, would You allow me to have a relationship with him?

tips usaha kuliner ala hana

Pengen deh punya usaha kuliner. Selama tinggal di Bandung banyaaaaaaak banget restoran atau toko unik yang nyediain makanan aneh-aneh. Ada steak gajah, bakso loncat, surabi imut, risol mayo, chicken cheese, nugget jamur, dodol jamur, keripik kribo, banyak deh. Seneng bisa dapetin banyak inspirasi ketika berwisata kuliner mengelilingi kota kembang ini.

Kalo kita pengen usaha kuliner ada beberapa hal yang perlu diperhatikan:

1. Buatlah nama seunik dan seaneh mungkin untuk menarik perhatian masyarakat. Ya tempatnya, ya menunya, pokoknya semua harus aneh dan unik.
2. Rasa dan jenis makanan yang dijual sebaiknya beda dengan resto lainnya. Kalo bisa berikan rasa nikmat yang ga akan dilupakan atau bisa kebawa ampe mimpi hehehe.
3. Pilih tempat yang strategis (yang sering dikunjungi banyak orang, samping kampus, deket jalan raya, atau deket tempat wisata) jangan lupa untuk selalu menjaga kebersihan. Seenak surga pun makanannya tetep aja kayak neraka kalo tempatnya jorok. Desain ruangan yang unik juga jadi bahan pertimbangan masyarakat untuk mengunjungi resto Anda.
4. Pelayanan yang diberikan harus maksimal (harus ramah, cepat tanggap, dan sabar dalam melayani pelanggan)

Itu poin-poin penting yang Hana dapet selama mengobservasi resto dan toko makanan di Bandung. Moga bermanfaat yaa :D

belajar memahami orang lain

Kalian tau ga, ketika kita membenci sesuatu sebenernya kita hanya membuat diri kita menderita. Hana pernah punya pengalaman menarik tentang ini. Hana udah pernah cerita kan kalo pas jaman SMA pernah punya konflik sama sebuah genk. Sebut aja namanya genk Bad****. Hana hanya kenal seorang saja diantara mereka selebihnya Hana ga kenal sama mereka, tapi tiba-tiba mereka menyerang Hana dengan mengirimkan pesan berisi kata-kata yang-- udah lah ya sensor aja-- ke friendster saya. Jujur, saat itu saya benar benar marah, kesel, jengkel, sebel, pokoknya pengen ngamuk sama mereka. Tapi ternyata Hana ga bisa apa-apa, Hana cuma bisa nangis dan mikir, mungkin emang Hana punya banyak salah sama mereka.

Memang tidak mudah untuk mengatur hati pada orang yang telah menyakiti hati kita. Rasanya benciiiiiiiiiiiiii dunia akhirat sama mereka. Tapi ternyata kalo kita benci sama orang, justru kita yang rugi, kita yang capek hati karena selalu memikirkan yang jelek-jelek tentang mereka.

Hana belajar dari kejadian itu. Belajar untuk bisa mengatur hati, menjaga perasaan, dan mengalahkan ego. Jujur, hal-hal seperti itu susah bin sukar bin sulit sekali untuk diaplikasikan. Ego saya selalu berkata “Ngapain sih kamu baik-baikin mereka, toh mereka udah nyakitin kamu” atau “ngapain sih kamu ngedeketin mereka, nyoba bertemen segala lagi. Inget Na, mereka udah nyerang kamu”, dsb, dsb. Inilah pikiran-pikiran negatif yang akan memberondong kita ketika kita ingin mencoba berdamai dengan musuh. Emang selalu ada proses untuk mendapatkan sesuatu. Hana terus belajar untuk berdamai dengan mereka, mencoba untuk mengenal lebih dekat dan membuka hati untuk berteman dengan mereka. Hasilnya luar biasa sekali, karena sekarang Hana mendapatkan apa yang Hana inginkan. Hana mengerti mengapa mereka melakukan “itu” pada Hana, sekarang Hana melihat dari sudut pandang yang baru, dan yang lebih membahagiakan adalah saat ini mereka menjadi teman-teman saya. Mungkin susah untuk memulai kebaikan pada orang yang telah menyakiti kita, tapi sesungguhnya ada hikmah yang manis saat kita berhasil melaluinya. Jadi, belajarlah untuk berdamai dan melihat lebih dekat pada apa yang kita benci.   

list your priorities

i need to manage my time wisely. when i have to learn, do the exercises, read the textbooks, and when i could be have fun. it seems that i waste my time recently. okay, i need to list my priorities now on.

just so you know

sorry for that misunderstanding. you know that. i'm not lie to you. if you don't believe me, just ask your ex about what she said. seriously, i'm not feeling well when you said that she never cheated on you but she said so. it's like that i'm a liar. no, i won't lie to you about this.
thanks for replying my text. i'm happy have a little conversation with you. really. so silly that i show a thousands words in order that you will understand. but it seems useless. it's funny to feel my heart beat faster than usual while i'm texting with you hahahahaha hana cupu. baru smsan aja deg-degan. gimana kalo ketemu coba hahaha soal belakangan itu. i don't know will we meet up again (or not). all that i know is i'm just a fool being someone who cares a lot with someone who doesn't. :p

unspoken connection

I don’t know how to say. That news makes me shocked. You and your girlfriend have ended the relationship. You know what, I’m sad when I know that. Very sad. You have been through almost 6 years with her. It would be your longest relationship that you’ve ever had. I have no idea that you appear in my dream, twice. You look so sad there. That’s why I decide to text you to know what happen. Then you reply that you are no longer with her. Yesterday I texted your ex-girlfriend and she said that she has cheated on you, that’s why you asked to end the relationship. I think when couples has been together in a long time, they would never been hurt each other. But I’m wrong. Time never reflects your faithfulness.  

Sorry to hear that. I hope both of you will find the right person. God has written the best destiny. Maybe someday you will be back with her or you will find the new one, who knows. Sometimes, everything doesn’t run with your own way. It makes you frustrated and desperate. Stay believes in God, He will show you the best way.

Life has it’s up and down. But don’t worry, I asked God to make you happy, healthy, and guide you safely through every mile. I know it’s never been easy to get over someone who has been with you for almost 6 years. But it’s your decision to let her go. I don’t know whether it’s good for you or not. One point that you have to know, I’m still here, pray for you. Pray the best for you.